Monday, October 18, 2010

lost in a limbo

It was a dark blue night

I was sitting by my window

A wind came to me

Asked me my name

I looked at the moon

Wasn’t shining so much then

I spoke to the wind

As I never spoke till then

It asked me a wish

A wish that I long for

I sat there confused

Deciding what to ask for

Thoughts were running like rats escaping a trap

Discovering fancies that I never believed I have

Facing those secrets as dark as the night

Meeting the new me whom I was long trying to hide

Wind was waiting for my wish

One wish that I desire

But it left me with a thousand questions

Still shining in my head like the burnish of a sapphire

Solving the puzzle till now sitting by my window

Darker nights have passed while I was lost in a limbo !!

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Le reverie

The time we spent together..

Was a fantasy, a sense of pleasure..

The time you were not there..

I collected those moments to keep them as my treasure..

The time when you held my hand..

I felt relieved and secured..

Now that someone else is holding it..

I wish the hand was yours..

The time I think of you..

I smile with tears in my eyes..

The time that I’m living now..

Will soon become another dream that dies..

The time I wish you’ll be back..

Are the times I suffer and cry..

Coz I know that’s a dream unfulfilled..

Which will cease and will soon become dry !!

the Pujas used to be fun

With those gup-shups round-the-corner.. and the crowd at Maddox..

Parking the car three miles away and walking with thousands to reach the pandal..

The Pujas used to be fun..

Coming back late and going out early, tiredness never used to come..

Sleepless nights and mindless talks, missing so much now and trying to re-live some..

Poking someone while giving anjali, fighting to touch Maa’s feet first..

Throwing the flowers on the pandit’s head and stealing sandesh from the thali..

The Pujas used be fun..

Dropping rumaal near a guy and pretending to move on, never sounded so cliché before..

Looking at the best dressed person around and quickly stealing the stare was full of masti and shor..

The Pujas used to be fun..

Eating phuchkas with extra mirchi gave so much pain the next morning..

Cribbing for more the next day again use to seem better than the last night’s mourning..

The Pujas used to be fun..

The food, fun and family, the life I used to share with my peers..

Those days I miss, I miss the most whenever I close my eyes for prayers..

The heart from within wants to be there.. there where my soul belong..

The mind still says, calms me down, gives me a new hope to live on !!

Monday, October 4, 2010

a rainy day

I wish this rainy day would have come in my life some 16 years back. At least I would have scored some brownie points for writing such an interesting essay when the exam paper asked for it.

Yes. You guessed it right. Today was ‘the’ rainy day of my life. So, how it started? Well, we planned for an all-girls food-fun-frolic outing today. It was a bright sunny day until those ‘kaale badal ki parchaiyan’ engulfed us. After coming out of the Pizza Hut, all we could see was one auto. It was raining cats and dogs and we – the stupid fools of the story were not carrying any umbrella with us.

Perfect Hindi-film scenario. One auto – five girls – heavy rains. Great excitement. One of the five fools started singing songs like ‘sawaan barse tarse dil..’ Till then it looked sober. We never, in our wildest dreams, visualized the near future.

When we reached the bus, our looks resembled to that of a drenched cat or may be a scare crow. Three girls got down from the bus and danced like heroines-on-the-road. Dance over – journey begins. Oh well, the moment we reached near the DRDO office, all we could see, feel and witness was water. More and more water. And more water. Lots and lots of water. People on the dark streets were standing holding the lamp-posts, cars were half-immersed under water, a few men were struggling to create holes on the walls for the outflow of water, gates thrashed by the force of water, buses not moving an inch and the rising water level raising the blood pressure of all those who were stuck.

Life is strange you see. When such serious and severe things are happening around you, you tend to find some really peculiar people to show you a complete different picture. Some Madonna-in-the-making kinda people starts singing rain songs, some 60’s ka predictable-heroine kinda people starts talking about burglars coming and attacking the bus, some panic-queen kinda people keeps shouting every now and then for any and every reason and some jadoo-type alien, anomalous person like me sits there staring at them predicting their next move. But even God couldn’t predict what happened next. A stupid-faced guy (in Bengali my word will be ‘kelane’) got down from the bus. Went near ‘the’ place where the water was flooding in its full force and started clicking pictures. Someone needed to remind him that DRDO was NOT the right kinda place for his picnic photography or his adventure photography (whatever his intention was). The cops catched him, snatched his phone and was just going to take him under custody when the great-guy came up with the greatest solution. He came back to the bus with an expression “Look, I won the battle.. Be proud of me people, I did it..” and he shouted with a face-full of smile, “you know, you know, I went there to click photographs..hehe hehe.. they saw me.. hehe hehe.. caught me.. hehe hehe.. snatched my phone and threatened to arrest me.. I just gave them my memory card and came..” and then the crowd goes, “hehe hehe..”

Oh well, it was some night. So many emotions I went thorough in a span of just 3 hours. Excitement, compassion, fun, fear, twinge, sympathy, glee, worry – too many to count. But at the end, it was a happy ending as we reached campus safely with a memory that will be etched in my mind for years to come.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

few lines by me

If only I could tell you why the sky is blue,

Probably, you would have understood my feelings for you..

few lines by me

There are times, when I stay alone..

Moments, when I wanna stay on my own..

Life doesn’t give me that leisure so often..

Time doesn’t grant that liberty to happen..

Standing in the crowd I feel forlorn..

Craving for the space that I can call my own..

Friday, October 1, 2010

event photography







the fire within